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Melancholy - Singing Detective
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Melancholy
The door slammed closed, it was all about the effect such a noise had on a person. He wanted her to think that everything he had told her was a lie, that he didn’t care for her and that it was all about getting to her son and husband.

But it wasn’t.

Peter closed his eyes and let out a long shaky breath, and his hands were shaking too. He’d asked her to come away with him, move up to Scotland and start a life together away from the horror that was Blackpool. But, even though she said she would leave with him, she just been to tell him she was going to stay in Blackpool with that arse, Ripley Holden.

The room felt so empty and yet it was stifling. He couldn’t breathe; the woman he loved and loved him in return had decided to stay with a man who didn’t seem to know she existed, and she was doing it because she thought it was what she should do. She was scared of doing something for herself, something to make herself happy. Peter had no idea how much time had passed, but he just stood at the door, staring at it, willing her to come back and say she wanted to be with him. But she didn’t and he just stood there for so long.

He’d wanted to make her feel bad about herself because he was hurt, but he just ended up making himself feel worse.

That night he climbed into bed and just stared at the curtains and watched the lights flash from outside. For the first time in a long time he hadn’t felt hungry, he just lay down and willed the pain to stop but it wouldn’t.

“It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
It doesn't matter if I cry
Don't matter if I bleed
You've been on a road
Don't know where it goes or where it leads

It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
If you've made up your mind to go
I won't beg you to stay
You've been in a cage
Throw you to the wind you fly away

It doesn't matter what I want
It doesn't matter what I need
It doesn't matter if I cry
Don't matter if I bleed
Feel the sting of tears
Falling on this face you've loved for years”

Finally he drifted off to sleep, an empty feeling deep in the pit of his stomach.

ooc: Artist: Alison Krauss & Union Station Lyrics. Song: It Doesn't Matter Lyrics.

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